Ref's ~

It takes being a hopeful fool to trust in You.  What a ridiculous pursuit Of You.  But I am here,  And this hope  Gives me the look  Of an optimist.  I am not an optimist.  I am a worshipper.  And where I build my altar,  He builds his home. 

The Lord is my shepherd.  He leads me beside still waters.  Let the mist come,  I don't mind it,  Let it blur my vision,  I'll listen to the water instead.  Let it rush  Let it break into a thousand drops,  I've lost count of the times The river has sung me to sleep.  Too many times I've fallen asleep on the shore With the sound of the river As my lullaby.  I can sleep.  I can slumber.  I have someone watching over me.  In the still and resilient waters,  In the calm rivers and the stormy seas,  My soul can rest It is well with me.  But it's important to know  That when you forget where to go When you're lost, look for a river.  It will lead you. He will lead you.  He restores my soul.  Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me. 

I was wandering for a few weeks.  And then I asked myself "Where do I go from here?  What do I do?  Where is your mighty hand?" Yet, from heaven you send a sparrow To give me a purpose,  Even in the desert  When all I want is water,  You give me more,  You give me a promise,  You give me a purpose,  You give me a way out.  For the first time in my life I am in that headspace With a sense of direction.  I know where to go.  I know what to do.  I know how to spend my minutes.  I am excited to be here I am excited to live.      

My mind was obsessed with one,  While my hand was writing poems about another I didn't know yet.  I had all these conflicting feelings in me,  I didn't know what to do with them.  I would have given them all up  All for a boring unbothered life Where I was left alone.  If I could.  But you were the moment When my head and heart meet in actual agreement Like two colors spread across the same sky,  I wear all these feelings on my sleeves  And place them at my finger tips so endearingly So I can learn to live with them and let them go too.  For updates :  @refaia_