Ref's ~

Dear God,  It's me. Again. Again. Again. Again. Repeatedly. Please don't get tired of me.  Dear God,  It's 2am. Help me sleep. Give me peace.  Dear God,  Smile down on me tomorrow. Okay?  Dear God,  Yes, I saw that sunrise. Thank You for Your smile.  Dear God,  It's getting lighter. It's getting better. Thank you.  Dear God,  You give and You take.  You take and You give.  Blessed be Your name.  Dear God,  I feel the heaviness again like never before.  But I feel You more.  Dear God,  Do you really collect tears?  Dear God,  How long did Jesus weep?  Dear God,  What is the most beautiful place on Earth? Will I get to go there one day ?  Dear God,  How many pieces of me was there before You fixed me last time? Dear God,  What is the colour of Your eyes?  Dear God,  If You really collect tears in bottles like the Song of Psalms say .. H...

I praise you As the low gets lower, I praise you with words my heart doesn't understand,  I thank you.  I thank you for reasons I do not know.  My tears are prayers that my mouth cannot speak,  My heart longs for the day my life ends,  When grief ends.  When guilt ends.  When sorrow ends.  I am not suicidal,  I crave peace,  I crave Your presence.  So please God make yourself known.  I cling to You.  I hope in You.  Rescue me.   Don't forsake me, my God,  Don't leave me behind, my Saviour.  May my story become the proof of your merciful grace And great kindness,  I draw close to you.  I'm learning to trust in you.  And so even when my heart fails, may Yours beat for me.