Ref's ~

        Some days you wake up looking for a reason to be grateful. It's like wanting to sing a song of praise and glory but all you have is a hum at best. Where is your voice to praise God? Where is your strength to dance for Him? Instead, every exhale and heartbeat are all you have for Him and even those are from Him. Some days, your pockets are empty and you have nothing left and so you pray. But a prayer of faith isn't an escape but a stronghold.  So hold on strong because God isn't leaving you on read, He is just taking his time to reply. And yet sometimes He does and yet sometimes He doesn't. But you can keep praying because you still have breath in your lungs and even breath is grace.        Some days you play hide and seek with God and God loves to hide. He loves to keep to himself a lot of times . Everyday you see the unknowableness of Him and everyday you keep looking. He lies there amidst mysteries and questions. But God...

It was night. I was in the car with my best friend and we were jamming to our childhood songs (after we had just spent the whole day laughing till we're physically exhausted) We were 'dancing' like the idiots we were (and are haha). We were singing , actually she was singing and I was listening to her. She's very talented and ambitious. She's passionate and full of life and dreams.  I am sure she's going places. Shillong doesn't have anything for her. Then it hit me, like a punch in my stomach, things won't always be this way. She saw me and asked me "What happened? " She can read me like an open book (it's been 15years after all) Then a tear rolled down but it was dark so I don't know if she saw it or not. I told her "The thought of us living far away from each other hurts" She got what I meant. She looked away from me and turned her face into the darkness. "I'm sad now"  is what she only said.