Ref's ~

It's been 20 years and halfway through,  I feel the wind and I breathe deep,  So deep my bones feel alive; Maybe, God hasn't given up on me.  I've never prayed for anybody to stay But I pray, I only pray for God to never leave me.  Sometimes, people leave each other,  They do so for their best.  They do so for themselves.  I'll admit it's a little selfish.  But in just 20 years and halfway through,  I've learned never to expect perfection,  Flawless humans without a hint of hate.  Maybe this is why children see adults as pessimists And adults see negative adults as realists,  But the truth is that  All people are struggling.  You've got to show them grace. The way you have been shown.  My Instagram page :  refaia_      

There's an entrance and then there's an exit. I guard the entrance but never the exit.  Each and every person inside can leave whenever they want. The exit is always open but when you leave, leave in a way worthy of our friendship, leave in a way that shows that it mattered. Make it a dramatic exit, make it loud, make it catch my attention.. announce your exit!       Don't sneak out like it's a back door, it's not. If I could put neon lights over the exit sign, I would but I can't because neon lights look too happy and you leaving is never a cause for celebration. It's okay to make me sad though. It's okay to leave me. Just do this one thing for me; when you leave, make sure I notice you leave, so that I won't go looking for you, so that I won't wait for you ...           And finally, "Thank you for stopping by."    My Instagram page :  @refaia_

The hardest journeys aren't on roads,  They're on little lanes But that's okay  Because you'll meet birds,  And they'll sing for you And they will fly so courageously,  You'll be inspired.  And when you get lost In the woods Or the deserts,  God will give you friends.  No matter where you go You will have them,  Those who will find you When you are lost And will bring you home.       

First it was Mr Bean and Teddy, Tom and Jerry, Phineas and Ferb, Batman and Superman, then it was us. I spent the 9-5 with you and somedays it was 8-8. Like everyone else in this world, we don't have everything but unlike everyone else we had inside jokes about everything.   First it was "I will"                       "I will see"                         "I can't"                            "I won't"  Then it was silence for a month. A month became a year. A year became two years and three.         We were children then. Now, I'm a young adult.     It was 6 in the morning. I was running. I saw you. I stopped for you.You looked at me for awhile. Then, I realized you did not recognize me.          

I replaced songs with poetry I replaced movies with comedy I replaced thoughts with prayers For three days I slept in I closed the curtains I stopped seeing the world with my eyes Instead I saw the world in my mind.  Little did I know Those three days  Were preparing me. I'm not a prophet  But in those three days  I wrote poems  That are now my only comfort.  I wrote a poem for my friends And I sent it to them But all that poetry Is now meant for me.  I wrote a poem about hands And I didn't know whose I meant But now I understand Now I clearly know That they were my own.  I spent the next three days In people's company Engaging in conversations That are now helping me.  I worked a little too hard Did a little too much So I rested my eyes But rested too much.  That night, I didn't sleep well.  If at all.  Last night, I didn't sleep well If at all.  The night didn't last long.  I stopped trying to sleep ...

Breathe in. Pray.  Breathe out. Give thanks.      Right now I don't know how to overcome, how to win, how to do this, how to live, how to love, how to laugh, how to cry, how to express myself,how to quiet my mind, how to be vulnerable, how to be strong, how to sing, how to dance but I have learned to breathe. It has become muscle memory.     Breathe in. Pray.  Breathe out. Give thanks.    Prayers. They are powerful. And when I say powerful, I don't mean that my prayers always get an answer, but things always seem a little less worse after I talk to God about it. Pray without ceasing.      Gratitude. It is an act of humility. Be thankful for what your hand has held, is holding and will hold. Be thankful for what slips through your fingers, for what you almost held and for what you never had to hold. Give Him Thanks.  Breathe in. Pray.  Breathe out. Give thanks.  Learn, learn, learn  Learn to ...

My favourite plant is a cactus.  Maybe, it's because it's easy to take care of.  It can survive...  There are people who can survive, then there are those who conquer and those who just forget.  So many times, my memory has failed me And for the most part, that keeps me happy.  But other times, my mind has underestimated              The strength it takes to move on When Failure rears its ugly heads Like thorns all over my body.  And though hiding behind loose words and vague metaphors  Is against my writer's ethics,  I have to mention that  A cactus can survive because of the sap  And the ugly thorns that it has.  A cactus is easy to take care of Because it can take care of itself.  It can survive.  I can survive.